Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Not All Opportunities Should be Taken....

Well, my interview went really well but what I found out about the job made it a no-go. They expect the person in that job to work from 8am to 8pm at least. I am not kidding! Seriously. They have a crazy deadline to meet and it would all fall on me. So, someone else's lack of planning would become my torture. No thank you. Plus, it wasn't enough money either. And where's my training and mommy time? Ridiculous. If you want a machine, hire a computer...oh wait, you can't hire a machine to do a person's creative work? Hmmmm. Then you need to treat people like people and not machines. Oh, and plan better. I'm sure that you've known for quite a while when you needed the work done by.

I don't wish them anything bad, it's just that it seems to be the same old story that I endlessly run into. Treat people terribly, work the hell out of them and then spit them out. The interviewer basically admitted to me that they needed to do things fast because they are planning on laying off some of the workers that they are working to death right now. Right after the deadline hits. So again, no thank you.

It's a great learning experience. In the past I'd do too much, bend too much for my work. It really was a confidence problem. And whenever I'd do this things would turn out to be a disaster. I'd be unhappy, and then my work would suffer. Or I'd really lay it all out on the line, do a great job, killing myself in the process and NEVER get repaid. Someone else would get the promotion, or I wouldn't even get thanked for my efforts. As a friend of mine said, "I'm learning to own my seniority and defend my boundaries." She's right. It's hard to me to stick to my guns, but I will. The agency has called me back TWICE now trying to renegotiate something. But it's like a break-up with a boyfriend/girlfriend; sometimes when it's over it's just over. I'm just not interested anymore.

I think I need more time off, at the very least and maybe permanent time off the corp ladder in reality. I'm mulling over some writing projects that I've had in mind that might lead to a book. What better time than now to explore this option? All in all, going back to work for someone else right now just doesn't feel right, and I'm going to follow my intuition for a change.

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